Konstant Be

it flickers you stare at the space where the fire meets the wick the invisible halo that crowns the candle and it flickers and you realize your skin can't stand to be touched by another it flickers and you remember the nights she held onto you and you thought she would never let go it flickers even if it burns it flickers you stare and swear that space is portal you could reach through and caress HER skin if only the fire was big enough and it wouldn't flicker like a paint chipped window shutter in an Oklahoma twister you heart becomes a tease no longer protecting the pane threatening to shatter and let in the rain soaking the pictures it flickers because there's not enough oxygen because there's too many people in this room and it flickers and you wonder

Anything that has never had to survive won't ever be beautiful.

I want to paint something crazy and beautiful, sporadic and deep, colorful and painful all the same time and then throw it off a cliff.

I'm such an Aries. At the first sign of trouble, I practically rear up on my hind legs, lower my horns, and then charge into it full speed and try to fix everything. And I realize its because I care so damn much. The other day, the foot plate on my friend's wheelchair fell off. Before I knew it, I was in fix it mode, horns down and rushing to Macguyver a solution. I hate knowing someone is hurting and that there's maybe something I can do to change it. I want to save the world if just a little. I feel like I won't feel comfortable potentially bringing a child into this world if didn't try to make it better if just by the tiniest margin. But I have to remember that some things aren't meant to be fixed. And I have to accept that I can't fix everything. I can't fix everything. I shouldn't try to. Sometimes situations just need to be. Sometimes problems and emotions just need to run their course. And its enough to just be there, say I love you, and...

In the living room today, messing around...

I should be sleeping...but I'm writing about you. Sleep can wait. Promises to keep and miles to go and all that you know...

TITLE - Bamboo Koi MEDIUM - aquaerosol & acrylic on bamboo DIMENSIONS - 13' x 16' SUGGESTED PRICE - DONATED DESCRIPTION - A good friend of mine gave me this section of bamboo panel and told me to paint a koi fish on it. <|3

And some moments I just tremble and some moments I just hope...

TITLE - After-school Specil MEDIUM - Stencil on wood DIMENSIONS - 3' x 4' SUGGESTED PRICE - 200.00 DESCRIPTION - 5 layer two foot by four foot stencil. The largest and most detailed stencil I've yet to do. It took me countless hours to cut and my middle finger was numb for quite a while after. It depicts three boys smoking in a time period when that was obviously the norm... Color Blue Sepia Orange Red Black & White Green <|3

It's ok to just be human.

Six foot by four foot mirrors. One man's trash, as they say...